Why do people feel like they have to find meaning? What is this meaning? What is our purpose? As presumptuous as this sounds, I feel like I may have these answers for myself. For me, I find that we have no purpose or meaning unless we decide we need to create one.
My whole life I was so busy living my life that I didn't really think about my essence of being and my own embodiment in time and space. Maybe that's what its about. Maybe living your life and not searching for meaning or purpose is the answer, because by virtue of not searching for those things you have inadvertently embraced them.
Lately the way in which I am trying to understand these these things and live my life has been very trial and error. My most recent way of being is to isolate yourself from past and future and simply 'be' in the present. I'm not sure if this is a realistic way of living, or how long it can go on for, but it seems like another way of embodying my experience on earth.
By doing it this way, everything is in the moment: happiness, sadness, anger, laughter, whatever it maybe, these emotions are, and become the meaning of each situation. What can we really search for? Perhaps trying to feel happy (or sad, or hopeful- whatever fits best with you) for as many days as we can before we die is the best we can hope for...
But the more I write here, the more I feel as though don't have the answer for myself as I presumptuously stated earlier. Maybe it's the people, like myself who agonize over these things that are trapped. Maybe those who don't need to search for meaning or purpose (or whatever, in the larger sense), are free. They are free to embrace life in a carefree way, which in turn is their 'purpose.'
I have not voiced these ideas to many, and those that I have voiced them to think I am a weirdo (to put it gently), which often makes for lonely thoughts at times. But maybe that in itself becomes the meaning and purpose on my own journey...
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