confused

So this week I met with the person that I used to date, and I found the whole thing to be quite confusing. Having a while to think this whole thing through I am ok with everything now and am looking forward to a (hopefully) long and easygoing friendship.

In all honesty before we met up I was a wreck. I was nervous about how things would go and how I would feel. I must admit it was not as terrible as I thought it would be. It will take some getting used to: being with him but not being WITH him, but overall we had lots to talk about and conversation flowed easily as it always has with us.

Now, getting on to the part that I found to be slightly confusing. While I admit I have done a lot of thinking recently about my life, I guess I didn't really think about whether he would be doing the same thing. It was kind of weird because I felt a little like I didn't know him because of all of his recent ideas and changes. But, it also felt like he was more like me now, having figured out a lot of things that he was very against before that I sort of had concrete feelings about.

I don't know, perhaps its just going to take some getting used to that he won't or doesn't want to share everything with me anymore and that I don't need to do the same thing. But I guess that's why you learn so much from relationships.

Despite my confusion, it was a great visit and I'm glad I went because I had missed talking to him.