Life is a Highway

Yeah, go time. Soooo, I won't be posting really this summer, if at all.

Life's like a road that you travel on
When there's one day here and the next day gone
Sometimes you bend, sometimes you stand
Sometimes you turn your back to the wind
There's a world outside every darkened door
Where blues won't haunt you anymore
Where the brave are free and lovers soar
Come ride with me to the distant shore

We won't hesitate
Break down the garden gate
There's not much time left, today

Life is a highway - I want to ride it all night long
If you're going my way I want to drive it all night long
Through all the cities and all these towns
It's in my blood and it's all around
I loved you now like I loved you then
This is the road and these are the hills
From Mozambique to those Memphis nights
The Khyber pass to Vancouver's lights
Knock me down - I'm back up again
You're in my blood - I'm not a lonely man

There's no load I can't hold
Roads are rough - this I know
I'll be there when the light comes in
Just tell 'em we're survivors

Life is a highway - I want to ride it all night long
If you're going my way I want to drive it all night long...

There was a distance between you and I
A misunderstanding once, but now we look it in the eye

There ain't load I can't hold
Roads are rough - this I know
I'll be there when the light comes in
Just tell 'em we're survivors

Life is a highway - I want to ride it all night long
If you're going my way I want to drive it all night long...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U3sMjm9Eloo

We'll Both Forget the Breeze

Almost all ready.

Super excited.

Really tired.

Didn't sleep and had to get to the hospital really early.

Really tired.

I did a lot of writing last night. I just typed and typed. I guess I got some good stuff, but sleep would also be nice.

D's awesome. What a great crp. Most bosses aren't that helpful and accommodating.

Leaving you behind was supposed to be really easy. Its not.

Whatevs, I'll deal.

The cake was not a lie. It was delicious, but last time it was better.

Too bad the only reason I went to my graduation was to go out to dinner, but we didn't even do that because of the famjam sitch.

Okay, say goodnight and go.

That feeling when you open your eyes and they're there. It sets it rises. I set, and I rise. It should be easier. But it never is. It's not worth it if it isn't complicated. I need the complication. The complication makes it real. That lets you feel, once in awhile.

I drop my cup. The water spills everywhere. Sometimes those things can feel like the end of the world. Don't cry over spilled milk. It helps make the other stuff seem real. It sets and rises, again.

You get a call. More people are sick. You open your eyes, and you're there. Smile, it's okay to do that today, even though it sucks. You get in the car. The journey is too familiar. The hospital has the same smell. The setting and rising is still going on. With or without you.

Am I crazy? I can't sleep, exhaustion hits. The awakeness persists. My head is full. It can't stop thinking. There's nothing else left to do but rise. You share the love, with those that you love, but not with the people everyone thinks you should. Let go, let it wash over you.

It sets. You're still awake. This time by choice. Surrounded by the friends that you love, and there are still apprehensions. I turn to my left, you're there beside me. You touch my hair and move your hand down my back. It feels like that's where it should be, which makes it more complicated.

It sets. We set. Side by side. So when it rises you're still there.

The White Body

Apologies. I actually wrote this a few days ago, then saved it because I got distracted. Now its here.



Today I am going to talk about a very touchy subject: race. I'm not quite sure how to go about this in a diplomatic way, as there are going to be problems from anyone's perspective. My perspective as a white female may or may not have an impact on my thoughts and ideas... I'm not sure.

I take issue with the fact that the white body is not racialized. Not because I feel like we are getting the short end of the stick or anything, but because why are all the other races defined as different? Aren't we all different from one another? White seems to be the standard by which all races are compared and thus becomes "race-less."

I wonder if there is a power shift and a country that does not have a white population gains power, white people will become racialized. I also wonder if since I am living in a country with a predominantly white population, we believe white to seem unracialized. Maybe looking at it from the perspective of India for example, white is racialized.

I realize I'm about to sound really stupid here: but it would be really awesome if nobody even cared about race. I know, I'm being really obvious here. But I was completely unaware of 'race' until I was taught in school how we are all 'different'. If I wasn't taught this I wonder what conclusions I would have come to on my own about race?

I suppose ultimately what I get confused about is the constant need to classify and point out the differences between one another. Because of the ways in which we all function within our various social orders the ways in which we view our own race, and other races is challenging to say the least. So, to end I still don't understand why my white body isn't 'racialized.'

You dropped the "B"-bomb on me today. I'm still recovering.

The Whole Enchillada

Being Outdoors

Playing Sports

Having thoughtful and intelligent conversation

...I think this might be too much to ask, as I have yet to meet 'the person' with all of these abilities.


There have been better weeks.

Way too many extraa classes that I didn't have the chance to take.

2 more days of work.

Kaths bday this week. Pretty stoked, she usually has a pretty rockin partay.

Fuckin LA-- you smite me down at every chance you get!

What am I doing here? I have so much shit to do today...peace out.

I don't normally like little "uplifting" reminders//quotes like this, but it happened to catch my eye. Enjoy the day everyone.

Mixed Salad Greens

Gonesies.

Stickers all over the place.

Last night in my dream I totally got with Chris Pine. He's supes sexy. Unfortunately in my dream his hardware was less than admirable.

TRIPITY TRIP TRIP!!!

I wish I had the balls that I used to have, to say what I am thinking to you, and people in general. The process of getting that skill back is a long one... I wish I had it now.

Car lessons are not that bad.

Maybe on my trip I'll find a lovely person that I can marry, or live with for awhile (or however long) so I can get dual citizenship. Dual citizenship would be a nice perk.

LOTR is taking for fricken ever to read. But its pretty epic.

My hair is long as fuck these days.

Mass chomper 5 million.

Don't tell me not to fall in love on my road trip, and then just leave it at that. Why would you even say that? That's not fair, not fair at all. It's unreasonably confusing.

Woof Woof Woof.

Fringe Trim.

A basketball with mickey mouse ears? C'est what now?

I have such lovely friends!

Defs have to get ready for work, k fineeee I'll procrastinate a little longer.

I bought "Bossypants" for 25-cents. Pretty good deal if I may say so myself.

I wish we were better friends these days. But were both really busy. Maybe one day you could be like my "big brother" or something... That's really lame. nvm.

No food in my house.

SNAX.

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So many people say the Beatles are the fathers of classic rock. And I agree. You'd have to be really uninformed to not be able to acknowledge that they really changed the way a lot of bands produced music. They were the first ones that stepped up and took those risks that other bands had not yet. I'm also quite convinced that anyone could find at least one song by the Beatles that they would be able to relate to their life. Now I'm not Beatles obsessed like some people can get, but they do have some catchy and thoughtful tunes. If I were to lay on the table my top 3 songs (in no particular order):

-Yesterday
-Eleanor Rigby
-I feel fine

So here's a sampling of the latter.

Baby's good to me you know,
She's happy as can be you know,
She said so
I'm in love with her and I feel fine
Baby says she's mine you know,
She tells me all the time you know,
She said so
I'm in love with her and I feel fine
I'm so glad that she's my little girl
She's so glad, she's telling all the world
That her baby buys her things you know.
He buys her diamond rings you know,
She said so
She's in love with me and I feel fine, MMM
Baby says she's mine you know,
She tells me all the time you know,
She said so
I'm in love with her and I feel fine
I'm so glad that she's my little girl
She's so glad, she's telling all the world
That her baby buys her things you know.
He buys her diamond rings you know,
She said so
She's in love with me and I feel fine
She's in love with me and I feel fine, MMM


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GlpMs_R3P6U

They look so little and young and early sixties. haha.

8 days a week

What the fuck? bad scene. as usual. im so good at bad scenes.

so good it hurts.

lets see now, first it was the wine head.

that wasn't my fault.

But it was a lovely evening last night. What a perfect time for a winic.

But then there were some other festivities. Oh dear.

Then there was some amazing times adventuring.

Some of my best life chats happened in first year with a friend of mine from my program. We lost touch. She's doing her masters now apparently. Good for her.

We're really different you and I. Maybe too different. But were not that different. We're also really alike. Maybe too alike.

I am defs going back to that place sometime soon to write. It was unreasonably inspiring. And I think it still would be with a clear and sober mind.

fuck, im doing it again. I probs wouldn't be doing it again if I had gotten more than 4 hours of sleep last night. And for the past 3 nights before that...

Then there was tension. I shut it down. It needed to be shut down, otherwise it would have turned into that time before when the next day we were both like...uhh what?

Rain, go away. Gawd.

Eleanor Rigby.

"I feel like we haven't been totally honest with each other." Your words not mine babe.l